Loving Yourself

Step one of this journey isn't admitting you have a problem. Its admitting you don't love yourself like you should. I just watched Demi Lovatos new video for her single "I Love Me" (See it here) and the lyrics hit in the face like a wrecking ball. 

“I wonder when I love me is enough? / Why am I always looking for a ride or die? / ‘Cause mine’s the only heart I’m gonna have for life.” The bridge concludes: “I’m a ten out of ten, don’t you ever forget it.”

Granted I have my ride or die, a husband of 16 years. We meet in 1998 so really I've had him for 21. We grew and learned how to be together and I literally can not imagine my life without him but am I enough? I dont feel worthy of his love. I dont feel worthy of any positive attention that's given to me at all - I put on a brave face but inside I'm saying yea right 🙄 - this is one of my goals to change. To fix. To accept. To love myself. That is what started this journey. How can I expect my daughters to self love if I dont follow it myself?

I also want to mention this article I found on Variety that discusses the influx of self love music coming out and how it ties into mental health awareness. But ima save that nugget of info for later. 

-ICT Fat Girl